It’s really hard to focus on anything other than zoning out in front of the TV right now. I have photos to scan, videos to fix, poems and stories to write, and an anthology to edit, and I can’t seem to focus on any of it. Sunday I had a movie marathon with the kids, and yesterday morning it continued, and that was all I could summon the mental energy for.
I want to know when I’ll be able to go back to work. I want to know when my kids will be able to go back to school (not this school year, but the beginning of the coming school year is up in the air at this point). I want to know when things will return to some semblance of normal.
But the answers to those questions are, like so much else right know, a great big unknown.
My state is one of several that never issued a shelter-in-place order. My county is part of a region of our state that was particularly hard-hit and is therefore under more restrictions than other areas, but for me at least, nothing really changed when the stepped-up restrictions were released. Our governor is currently hosting her daily press conference, and while I’m interested in what she has to say, I find it hard to focus on the press conferences as well.
As I’m writing this, the words on the screen keep blurring before my eyes. Focus is so hard to achieve, regardless of whatever it is I’m trying to focus on.
The wind is picking up here; it’s been raining off and on all morning, and it looks like another storm is approaching. I love to write during storms, but I just can’t right now, which is annoying since I actually have the time to do so.
How is your ability to focus these days?
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